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Hi, it’s Mizuki.
The date I will leave for the US will soon be finalized.
I don’t really worry about living or researching in the U.S., but I worry about being in a long distance marriage.
People often say, “You must be lonely.”, “Is Jeff alright by himself?”.
To be honest, I feel lonely.
Tears will come out if I think about this seriously.
Therefore I keep myself busy so I will not to think about the upcoming sadness too much.
When I applied for Duskin Ainowa (the sponsor of my research) 1 year ago,
I didn’t really think through the idea of going abroad by myself because I focused on chasing my dreams so much.
However, when I received the acceptance letter from the sponsor, I felt happy and sad at the same time.
“Long distance life, again.” I thought.
Jeff has lived in Japan for 4 years, and I know he is totally fine by himself.
I also know that 1 year passes so fast.
In 1 year, however, a lot of things can happen.
We can’t do things we have always been doing together.
I feel depressed when I imagine the long distance relationship life.
Since Jeff moved to Japan, I was able to explore more physically and mentally.
He took me to the places I would not have gone by myself or with my girl friends.
(For example, Yoshinoya. A Japanese fast restaurants which Japanese young girls don’t go because dining there will make them “look bad.” )
Also, he inspired me all the time.
I became to think things more deeply. We discuss about many topics at home.
Moreover, I made many new friends through Jeff.
We had many arguments too. (hahaha…)
By doing so, however,
the gap between us was getting smaller, I guess.
We can be still together, thanks to Jeff’s big heart.
Thank you so much!!
In this coming year,
we cannot celebrate right next to each other on
our birthdays,
Christmas,
New Year’s day,
Valentine’s day…
Though, I believe that we both can surely grow up this 1 year.
We thought we were gonna get married after I finish my research in the US,
but eventually we ended up getting married before that,
and I feel a stronger connection with him than before.
I will enjoy the rest of days with Jeff, and go to the US with confidence!