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As I wrote in this blog before, I met Jeff in 2007 in U.S.
When I started dating with him, I was 20 years old. And he was my first boyfriend.
I’m very outgoing and love to challenge whatever I’m interested in, even if someone stops me.
However, as I got older, I had more things that I couldn’t do like others.
One of them is dating.
Things I could have done were something I could achieve by my effort only.
But regarding relationship, I need to love someone, and someone needs to love me back right?
It cannot be completed only by my effort, and maybe I had been afraid to be declined because of my disability.
Although in high school or junior college, many of my friends got boyfriends, but I wasn’t interested in having one and was thinking I could enjoy my life with something else.
Therefore, I haven’t liked someone special really in Japan, and also had thought no one would like me as love interest in Japan.
However, just 5 days after I arrived in US, I met Jeff on campus.
To be honest, I thought he was cute but was not my type (I’m writing this because he knows it).
He was the one who had pursued me since the 1st day we met each other.
I gave him my PC email address on the day, and I received his email 2 hours later, asking me that “can we go to lunch tomorrow?”
Since the day, he showed up everywhere I went (I kinda thought he was a stalker!),
and we accidentally saw each other and talked almost everyday.
And of course he kept emailing and calling me almost everyday too….
As he acted so obviously and the campus is small (approx. 6,000 students), many international students got to know his love affair very shortly.
And I also heard about it before he officially asked me out.
But I hadn’t had any relationship before, and I didn’t expect that someone loves me first either.
So, I couldn’t believe that he liked me then.
I didn’t know his real personality.
Therefore I was doubting that he might be pretending to be a nice and sweet guy but actually he had different purpose like my money etc.
There were many cute Japanese international students on campus too, so I couldn’t think about any other reasons why he came closer to me.
To be continued tomorrow.